:(

Just woke up from a nap and I was just unfathomably sad. :(

*Deep breath* 
Okay.

I never feel sad. It's just that my emotions vary from manicly happy, to crazy, to mildly annoyed, then to a deep sleep. The most extremes of my emotions are written here, and even when happy isn't the top emotion it’s lurking just below the surface.*sigh* 

I just wanted to reach inside my body and rip out all these bad feelings so I can just be simply happy. Everything has had a bitter tinge for the last few days and it really really really sucks. I tried all diverting remedies just not to feel this way. But it doesn't help me to feel better...it's like a ghost at night that haunts me everytime when I'm alone. But when morning comes,It’s like I am waiting for permission to be happy. But what the hell am I waiting for? My head is fine but everything else is stuck in an inbetween land. And what the hell am I upset about? Because I don’t really know! Maybe It's just that all I wanted to be is make people that surrounds me happy. But it didn't work in my way...FAILED.!

So here's the scenario...

I don't understand why people argue and make little things turn to worst or even worst than worst.!

I never knew it would take weeks and still there's no progress of forgiving and compensating one's fault. I still had patience hoping for a positive outcome. Im doing my best effort to make things go back to normal but it seems it just getting worst.:( I blame it to the words who ruin my happiness all through this time...EGO & PRIDE.!!! Why don't you just loosen up a bit and make things smoothly as possible.?! 

Everything will be better in time, but time takes time and that really bites.~